hay

so eto nanaman ako, halos pakiramdam ko desperado na ako sa kakahanap, pati na sa mga lugar na corny na pumunta. kasi hinahanap hanap ko nanaman yung pakiramdam na yun. gusto ko makakilala ng bago. yung ok sana... ewan. malapit na ang pasko. malamig nanaman hehe. pero sanay na sanay na. bukas pasok ulit, trabaho ulit. malay natin, makilala ko pala yun bukas haha. malapit na umabot ng 444 ang nasa FS ko.. nasa 441 pa lang.. senyales ba yon? o.o

life as of 11/16/08

eto ako ngayon,
na halos araw araw isip ako nang isip kala ko hindi na ako makakalabas dun nang buhay,
ngayon lampas lampas pa. sinara niya ang pinto, pero mas madami pa ang nagsibukasan at mas ok pa sa inaaakala ko.

work has been sweet lately, mas fulfilling. i'm now trusted with what i am capable of, minsan natatakot din ako sa sarili ko, i could do just about anything as long as i believe in it. yabang no haha.. konting confidence lang.. pagbigyan na hehe

and recently someone's knocked on the door... masaya ako pag nakikita ko siya, pag ngumingiti siya .. kumpleto na araw ko. pag kakausapin niya ako.. puwede na akong mamatay dahil parang wala na akong hinahangad kung di ang makapiling siya. siya na kaya yun? baka.. baka hindi. pero ok lang. tuloy lang ako :)

i'm never gonna give up

regularization ;)

orayt, bukas regular na

sigh monday

so monday na daw ulit kami magkikita.. sabi ko "ok take care" kasi hindi ko talaga alam ano sasabihin ko. tapos umalis na ako.. habang kumakain ng breakfast isip ako nang isip, shit dapat kinuha ko pala number niya, why not?! para akong kinakain ng buhay sa kakaisip ng ganon. inihip ko lang yung buong bowl ng quaker tapos akyat agad ulit, i went in and asked for her cell number, seems like may bad experience siya by giving her number out dati. kasi may nagkalat daw ng number niya and maraming di kanais nais ang nangyari. so sabi ko ok i understand, panget nga naman yon. sabi niya she's glad i understood :)

lol, at least i tried.

no, i haven't given up. not yet >:)

movie marathon

since i had the extra 8 hours out of my usual 8 hours and was bored, i decided to try out what renan does. yeah, movie marathon. eh ang lapit lang naman ng sm centerpoint sa amin, parang bahay na nga lang e haha. so dumeretso ako dun nitong hapon, pinatos ko tatlong sine. una kung fu panda, then hancock, last yung wanted.

don't worry i won't spoil a thing. :P

yung kung fu panda antagal ko na kasi gustong panoorin talagang namimiss ko lang yung mga pagkakataon.
yung hancock hindi ko inaasahang papanoorin ko pero matagal pa kasi yung kasunod na showing ng wanted kaya yon. sa opinyon ko.. hindi ko siya nagustuhan. gusto ko na tumayo't umalis nung medyo gitna dahil nakakainis na ituloy panoorin.. don't get me wrong. will smith played the role really well, as well as the other actors/actresses... yung istorya lang talaga ang kulang. tapos non wala na kain kain, deretso nood ng wanted. malupet yung wanted, medyo nakakainspire. at some points parang nakakarelate. hindi ko sure kung bakit pero paborito ko dun yung part nung binalikan niya apartment, slammed the door open on his bestfriend's face, tapos nandun yung dati niyang girlfriend tapos naghalikan sila ni angelina jolie. i laughed to myself. "he's the man" =)) ewan ko ba wahahahaha. weird.

yon.

kain muna pang-gabi.

rush on events

orayt. here's the summary of what's happened so far:

1. the rush of reports and the uber night (and some friction)
2. hobby fest (nendroid and revoltech)
3. the date with the hot dentist (on my 3rd week now)
4. badminton with old playmates (and some catching up)
5. kung fu panda (that i still haven't watch due to many circumstances)
6. balik deliRO (finally with a really good guild)

hinga ng malalim, andami nangyari in a span of a week? or few weeks. but it feels good, knowing that i'm learning a lot right now. i feel like it's only this time that i've been able to develop myself. it's all due to the freedom that i now have. thanks. nakakatawa din minsan i learn from the people around me. everyone's been doing the same thing. has it become a fad? i laugh to myself.

yes sometimes it gets lonely like this, but i always have my eyes peeled in pursuit of that right person for me.
ewan ko ba, i'm vulnerable sa totoo lang. i have a lot inside of me, welling up. swerte nung next person haha.
i hope magiging swerte din ako sa kaniya syempre.

yun lang muna sa ngayon, wala na matype.

whew!

was quite a busy day. hirap talaga pag minsan sabay sabay kong tinatandaan lahat ng kelangan kong gawin sa isang araw. idagdag mo pa dun yung biglang may susulpot na ipapabugfix sayo hehe. sa kakatest ko nung isang fix na may kinalaman sa date, nakalimutan kong iset pabalik yung oras at nalate pa ako sa meeting time namin ni rouie naku... sorry po ate rouie :( yan tuloy. tinakbo ko mula opis papuntang sm ayala para maabutan ko pa siya. tapos lahat ng sinasabi ko sa kaniya nagkakahalo-halo na dahil sa hilo ahahaha. andami nangyari ngayon that i just couldn't write it all down. one of them yung pinapair up ako dun sa hottest girl in the office, the other yung naayos ko finally yung isang report ko, then the other side project, then fusbol, then ragnarok, then bayantel and then etc.

but i'm very happy with this. it's not stress at all. i'm doing so much better now. yeah. i'm moving on :D

nagmamarunong

i don't really care if you are gay, if you wear a miniskirt, or bra or what. i respect the people who deserves respect, yun lang. i post what i want to post. ang pinakaayaw ko sa lahat ay yung taong hindi mo na kaanu-ano, magmamarunong pa, at makikialam pa sa buhay mo. so he's here in manla. so what? sorry sa mga taong kaclose niya. this isn't meant to offend you. i'm merely spilling my thoughts. i'm not fond of him. based sa pinost niya i don't think i'll even be interested in knowing anything about him at all. words of wisdom? keep it to yourself. madali lang kasi talaga magpost ng kung anu-ano tungkol sa ibang tao pag hindi ikaw ang nakakaranas nung hirap na iyon. it's good your siding with your friend who's my ex. and hell you must be so proud laluna sa mga comments na nakuha mo, one from my ex. so here's your trophy: BUZZ OFF of my life. wag ka magbigay ng advice laluna't walang humihingi. isa ka sa mga dahilan kung bakit ambaba ng tingin ko ngayon sa mga taga nsp cebu.

ragnarok

my addiction.. yan na lang lagi kong nilalaro mmorpg, i tried the others like lineage 2, wow, perfect world, ragnarok online 2. pero talaga wala silang masyado appeal sa akin. and recently, my old ragnarok buddy's inviting me back to pRO again... siya yung dating guild master ko back nung glory days namin. we were slaughtering people nung unang labas pa lang ng woe. extension guild lang kami, pero mas malakas pa kami kesa sa main, enough para ipirata ng main yung ibang kamember ko hehe. those were the days. and now parang gusto ko ulit bumalik. casual player lang sana hehe. pero gastos din ito hahay...ang gastos part is yung equips. free to play naman.

me life as of april 26. 2008

hi. my name's ben. i'm 24. single. getting thinner by the day. and keeping my eyes peeled for that one right person for me. someday i'll look back and read this and may be laugh at it. or may be i'll reminisce the moments when i was still young and alive. i'm here in the office on a saturday because i want to. what a change. i came in because i want to work. wow that's got to be something. you don't get that in nec lol. and not when you feel like you're being hammered down. meron kami dapat sportsfest kaso i didn't want to go because it was too far and i have something i really want to do here. so there you have it hm.. work's been fun lately. i have so much to look forward to and i really like my groupmates. there's primo the project leader, vetzu the crush ng office, erwin and eli both are jokers and bullies, sir paul "phoenix" and ruel the overly exicted kid. i don't have to mention about their skills because all of them are tops. tech skills don't matter to me. i just wanted some space to breathe wahaha. i'll get to my goals slowly. i don't want to rush. i've got a lot of things to improve with myself. i still feel like i'm a void. may be the right person will come to fill that void.. and stay... really stay

hamburg

it's small, very lethal, but very yummy.. to the ears :) presenting the burger bass speakers. bought it sometime last week while tagging along with vetz. i just couldn't resist buying it. nice color, loud sound for something so small and compact. a new addition for my new psp slim ;]

eat at your own risk

new psp :D

as the title says. i bought a piano black psp slim from viramall this afternoon. i told myself i'd get the felicia blue or black.. but this is the only one available, i like it a lot, especially the classic black look. so there you go. 8.6k php technically i got it for 2.6k php since i sold my old phat white psp for 6k php. now to download all the crap and dump them into the memstick lol.

say hello to my new friend:

random thoughts

what was i really looking for or what was i thinking when i was looking for other jobs? finally something made me ask that question to myself.. and i realized that.. what i had been looking for.. what i really wanted.. was a life

that's cheesy i know. but it's the truth. i don't wanna work my ass off just for the money. well that's fine, who doesn't want money? haha! money makes the world go round. but if that's the only reason, i feel it's just a waste of my time. i don't want to work feeling like work has become a drag. or work like i got a huge army knife stuck on my chest.

i just want to live my life happily, enjoy life. live with a bang! when i die i don't just want to say "ah, i've worked in , i've earned so and so dollars.. *blip* ", in the end i want to be able to say i've lived my life the way i wanted to, and how do i want it? i want it to be fruitful, enjoyable and pleasant.

random thoughts.

*bleep*